Chapter 93

"Emma … I want you to know how much I love you … I mean really love you … There's no one else in this world for me. I need you …" He gets up and paces around for a moment, making me feel sick with worry but relieved that this isn't a breakup speech. He comes back to his previous position and swallows hard. "Last night, when I thought you'd done something, after the talk about not wanting to marry me and pretty much breaking up … It fucked me up in the head." His eyes are focused on my hands and I can see they are filled with unshed tears; he can't look at me. "None of this changes how I feel about you … I need you to know that I still love you every bit as much as I did, I still want the same things with you, and I acted like a complete fucking idiot at the airport … I believe you when you text me that nothing happened. I wish I had the sense to realize it last night, but I was so drunk and jealous, and I wasn't rational … bambino I was so goddamn distraught.&q