Chapter 34

I'm tense as I sit in the office waiting for Jake, he hasn't called or text me all weekend and I've been too afraid to contact him. Apart from after our time on his boat, we've never gone this long with no contact and it has me overly touchy and emotional. My nerves eating away at me. Already I've snapped at two receptionists when coming through the floor to the office, for the smallest things. I check my watch repeatedly. When Rosalie takes up residence in her own area of the office outside of mine, I realize it's after nine and Jake still hasn't shown up; he's rarely late. I'm tense and on edge, and I've no idea what we'll even say to each other. All I've thought about all weekend is what we have done. How it felt to have him kiss and touch me that way, what it felt like to let Jake have sex with me, and it brought me to tears over and over. Despite everything I thought when it first happened, I can't deny that the memory is bittersweet. I felt alive and cherishe