Chapter 58

Alexi is avoiding me. Party in full swing on our first night and I am completely in control of the event. I would go as far as saying our first night is a success, minus one tiny little detail … Tyler, my ex-drug dealer, that beat me half to death has come as a guest; I was too preoccupied because of Alexi to check the bloody guest list before coming down here to see. Joanne, the tit of a girl, obviously ignored the list of banned names when looking through this, or else it was deliberate, and she's in need of a good slap. It just adds a level of extreme anxiety to my night and has me looking over my shoulder constantly always aware of where he is. I may have nothing to fear from him anymore, but he still tried to kill me and that won't just go away. My stomach is swirling with nerves knowing he's here, and I just cannot relax. I keep biting my lip and picking my nails and then scalding myself for showing my unease so obviously. I'm better than this and need to get with t