chapter forty- Nine

My head was reeling, my mind worked quickly trying to grasp at straws. I was in disbelief yet I believed every word he said. I sat there dumbfounded at the New information. Diana was right, this wasn't the sort of news I could have heard in the office. It would have thrown me off the minute she said it. Although I could feel and see how good Killian was to me in terms of treating me well and taking care of me. He was so sweet when he was gentle and even sweeter when he was rough with me. He made it known what he wanted from me and I was okay with it. Why do I feel like crying after hearing all of this? What was I expecting Zack to say? I was unaware of the things he did in his spare time. Well, when he wasn't having sex with me. When he wasn't at work, what was he up to? Was he seeing other ladies behind my back? The dirty mistress, the dirty little secret he had to keep away from the public eye. I felt bad, and yet I had no idea why I did. It was like a back-and-forth decision with my