Chapter 44

Nikita's POV, Suddenly my tears flowed when I saw pain in his eyes. I'm not as bad as you think you'll be happy when you see the person who once hurt you hurt. "H-how come?" He asked incredulously. "Please, don't joke like that. Maybe you just want to retaliate for hurting you before but not this way Niks. Please, take back what you said." He said that it seemed like the most disgusting word he had ever heard in his entire life. I'm sorry Terrence. We're really not meant for each other. What did I do and I was loved by two people I don't love as a lover but the person I love myself and want to be the father of all my children can't love me? If I could just ask for a time machine to bring back the old time Terrence and I had that I loved and fight for the two of us or dictate to my heart that Hanz was the only one to love right away, I would have done it but those were impossible. There is no time machine and no speaker in the heart for everything I want to happen.