A Restless Soul

As the rain was getting heavier, the sky was getting darker, letting him hide in the darkness and integrate with the surrounding. At this moment, there was a sketch in his mind, which he got from begging the doctor to tell him where she was. After he begged the doctor dozens of times, the doctor finally described him a rough road map. Secretly, he used a pen to draw it out and burned it into his memory. Stumbling along the way, he finally saw the cottage. As there was a small lamp hanging from the rooftop, it allowed him to see the shadows of the sunflowers. At once, he was certain that this was her house. Finally, he found it. At this moment, the raindrops kept falling on him, like bullets constantly penetrating through his body. Just as he had an urge to rush over recklessly, knock on the door, and let her come out to see him, his body froze. As he didn't move forward anymore, he stood still in front of the fence. What did he think he was doing? Just to let her see how he was a mess?