Chapter 255

My bed is cold and uninviting, so I’ve not even tried to get in it since coming here to rest. The house and the surrounding grounds are almost silent, and you can feel the loss of our pack in every atom around us. The males and femmes out there are missed by every house in the village while we mourn for our loved ones and can’t escape the weight of grief it’s brought down upon us. There’s no joy. There’s no childish laughter or happy squeals in the air. All day it was as though Tawna was not the only wolf we needed to lay to rest. I checked on Carmen throughout the day, but she was asleep and looked painfully peaceful in her vulnerable state. The doctor kept her medicated out of kindness, but I have asked to speak to her before we leave tomorrow. She needs to know what’s happening and not get secondhand information from others after I go. It’s the least I can do because if it were me, my guilt and self-blame would eat me up, knowing my mother caused this. If it were me, I would emotion