Chapter 14

Both Colton in my head and his dad verbally, in unison, and I panic that I spat this out loud. “It was the plan, my intentions. I mean, after my ... the umm … tonight. My turning. I was leaving. Going away, and it doesn’t have to change.” I sound insane. Babbling like a fool with verbal diarrhea and aware of the way all eyes are eating up my weak presentation of my crap contribution. I should have run when I had the chance and screwed the running ceremony. “That won’t break the bond. We’ll still be connected, still linked. It will make us miserable. Don’t you see? What happened tonight changed everything for both of us.” Colton sounds deflated, and I get the visual of him and Carmen kissing. Right from his head to mine and have to shake it away as insane jealously claws at my insides from out of nowhere, proving his point. Irrational, illogical, but there it is, and he didn’t even mean to project his sad thoughts about her my way. “Then what? Because all I am hearing is hopeless submis