Chapter Forty Nine: A Plea for Surrender

Celine When I loved, I loved with all I had. And when I hurt, it cut deeper. It tortured my mind and the very core of my being. Once burned, twice beaten. Once was a mistake, twice was foolishness. I would be a fool to allow myself to get burned again. Trevor Lawrence made me want to let go of my resolve and surrender to his advances. But I had my insecurities around him too. He wouldn't be different from Aicher. Trevor could break me even more than Aicher did, and I doubted that I would be able to pick up the pieces if I allowed my heart to get shattered by him. The passion I felt for Trevor burned more than I felt when I dated Aicher. My heart must have known his love for me was unreal; I was the one pushing it. I should have caught the signs early before we went too far. Then his betrayal wouldn't have cut as deeply as it had when I found out about it. I raked my hand through my hair as the water from the showerhead rained down my face. I angled my face to