Chapter 2

2: Fat & Ugly << Sophia >> As I sit in my office doing my work, I receive a message from Nikkie. Last evening, she was glaring at me. God knows what she wants now! Nikkie: ‘I have a surprise for you. Let's catch up at my place at 8 tonight.’ I don't wanna meet her. She always belittles me for no reason. I am still under the glow of time I spent with Caleb last night. I don't want to ruin my mood today. Me: ‘I am busy.’ Nikkie: ‘Aww... I had such a delightful surprise for you. Anyway, I will send it to you now.’ Next, she sends me a series of 7-8 images. Intimate images of her and Caleb. I suck in a breath when I see they are having sex. I rise from my desk in shock. I blink and try to understand. What the fuck is this? Then I message her. Me: ’YOU BITCH! WHERE ARE YOU?’ Nikkie: ‘My place. We just had sex. Catching some breath for our next session.’ I immediately call Caleb. But he cuts the call. Nikkie: ’I have his phone. He didn't have the guts to tell you the truth. That's why I took the matter into my hands.’ I walk out of the office in rage and drive towards Nikkie’s place. I am fucking enraged. That motherfucker! Coward! I receive more and more messages from Nikkie. I take a glance at my phone at the traffic stop. Nikkie: ‘You filthy fat bitch... You thought you could get him back by giving him blow jobs? He doesn't like you and doesn't want to sleep with you. You slut… why did you try to sleep with him last night?’ Tears prickle my eyes. She is a slut, not me. She is sleeping with my fiance. We were supposed to get married this year. She is the one stealing my fiance. I want to confront Caleb too. How could he do this to me? I am still unable to believe this is happening to me. Nikkie: ‘Door is open. You can come inside. I am going to ride him again.’ I press my feet at the gas in anger and race through the streets to get her place. When I reach there, her door is open. And she indeed is riding him. “CALEB!” She turns her head and gives me a smirk and, like a slut, she keeps on riding him. I want to puke as I see his dick sliding in and outside her. It's filthy and disgusting. Caleb looks shocked as he notices me and pushes Nikkie away. I am livid, but I turn away to give them time to wear some clothes. “Nikkie! Go outside.” Caleb orders her and wraps a sheet around his waist. “Grow some balls and tell her the truth! We have been fucking for months for God's sake,” Nikkie spats and walks out. She is still naked. I know she is showing off her perfect body to me. I look like a fat pig in front of her. I am indeed ugly. I swallow and look at him to see if he is ashamed. He is unable to meet my eyes and says, “I am sorry Sophie… You did so much for me... I couldn't tell you the truth sooner.” “Tell what? That you are fucking my sister behind my back?” I laugh humorlessly. “and here I thought you were too busy or tired…” I am fucking furious about why he didn't have the guts to break up with me. Was it a pity? As if he reads my mind, he says, “You saved my mom’s life. I will always be thankful for that... But I don't owe you my life, Sophie… I cannot sleep with someone who looks like this…” He points his finger at my body as I am some dirt on his shoe. “Do you have any idea how hard I was working to get back in shape?” My voice quivers as I try to process the heartbreak and insult he gave me. “Oh, please!" He scoffs, "People get better in a few months… It's been a fucking year! Don't use the excuse of kidney donation operation to hide the fact that you are lazy..." His words sound like a knife in my gut. "You thought we were engaged. That's why you stopped taking care of yourself. I have standards, God dammit! I won’t fuck something I don’t like!” He doesn’t stop there and adds more insult to my injury. “Do you have any idea what people say when they see us together? My friends tell me I can do better than some fat ugly chick. I feel fucking ashamed to even take you out for dinner..” My cheeks burn in embarrassment, and I swallow hard. Doesn't he love me? Is it all about looks? But I have no words to say. Even if I had, I don't think it would come out of my mouth. I am too shocked to hear so much hate coming out of Caleb’s mouth. I stand there like a fool to hear more and more insults he throws at me. “Look at your sister. No one would say you two are related. I needed sex. If I couldn’t fuck you, I had to turn to someone I like.” Nikkie walks in, still butt naked, and says, “and I give better blow jobs too.” She is not ashamed that Caleb is using her for sex. Caleb looks at her hungrily. He probably loves her confidence too. I can never be confident enough to stand naked and own my body in front of someone else. Since childhood, everything for Nikkie was a competition. No wonder she wanted Caleb too. I knew she hated me. But this much? I am lost standing in the same room trying to process this betrayal, my fiance and my half-sister have given me. She unwraps the sheet around Caleb's waist and drops on her knees to give him a blow job in front of me. As she licks his length from bottom to top, I rush outside of her house and puke in her driveway. My eyes burn with tears and I drive for hours at top speed with no destination and no care for safety in my mind.