Chapter 19 going into depression

I leave Carlos's house so humiliated, I can't believe what just happened, when things began to happen between the two, I imagined that he was a single man, such chivalry, it was nothing more than an act of hypocrisy, or a simple requirement for work, I took a taxi and went home, besides being physically beaten, I felt like my soul was also dragged into a deep well, I was only receiving bad feelings from the men that I allowed them to enter to my life, if I thought about it, from the moment I had Camille and her father abandoned me, I began to know the misfortune that love brings, I felt frustrated, I couldn't help but cry all the way. When I returned home to my surprise, my husband was already waiting for me, he did not have a good face, and it was obvious that he was upset with me. I already imagined that he knew that he had been at the house of what was now supposed to be his wife, how ridiculous that sounded, after all, Lucia was delusional. "Where the hell were you, Amanda? I've