Chapter 53

The more I thought about him, the more fascinated I became. That annoyance and fascination with him had grown into an obsession. My frustration and obsession had turned into lust. I just couldn't stop thinking about him. I couldn't stop wondering why it was that this guy just did it for me in the worst way. It reached the point where every time I was hooking up with a guy, it was Randy I imagined in his place. It was madness. I never liked the good guys. They were always just so unbelievably dull. But Randy stood out. I hated him, and I hated that I lusted for him. My feelings were certainly passionate, one way another, but I had to figure out which way I truly felt. I had to get to the bottom of my feelings for him, for my own personal sanity. Either I had completely misjudged my own sexual desires, or... I had misjudged Randy. No... no. I was right about him. I was positive on my assumptions about him true. I became convinced that there was an animal inside Randy, bursting to get o