Chapter 39 He was scared

　　Louisa's POV 　　I was shivering like a leaf in his arms. 　　This is it. I told myself. After all these years, I'm going to lose my virginity to none other than Lucas Asshole Farrow. 　　And I was 100% sure it would be painful. 　　My breath became shallow and I couldn't take my eyes off him. He removed his watch and placed it on top of the desktop and then removed his nightgown. He looked heart-stoppingly beautiful, with a sadistic evil smile on his face. His raven black hair was a mess and he was fully erect. The size of it made me terrified. 　　No way. There was no way for him to stuff into my body. It was physically impossible. 　　"I know this is the first time for you to do it. So I promise I'll be gentle, Louisa." He stared at me with his bold, dazzling blue eyes. 　　There wasn't a dash of mercy in his eyes. He stared at me like a wild, angry beast. 　　"What are you looking at? Take off your clothes." He leered at me. 　　"Lucas, please don't do this to me. I can't... I want to save myself