chapter223

I didn’t wish to have my soul lost. I didn't want to live this life of despair. I didn't want to be unhappy for the rest of my life. Perhaps I shouldn't have interfered. Perhaps I should have run far away and pretended that I didn't see Holland's skull almost crack in half. Perhaps I should have looked out for myself rather than others. He was just my half-brother, yet I felt like I was responsible for him, even though he did nothing but hate me for so long afterwards. I should have just let him die, then I would have had both my soul and the kingdom to myself. I shouldn't have traded my soul with the demon prince on my knees for Holland's life. I shouldn't have begged Anselm to forgive my brother for his mischief. I shouldn't have sworn to obey his every commandment if he let Holland live. He must have known that a day would come where he might need me to carry out one of his devious plans, and that was why he let me live. I shouldn't have begged him to erase Holland's memory of the e