Chapter 10

Lailah Dk I climbed the stairs and walked into my room. My heart felt heavy. I wanted to scream. I hated how I felt, Like a used product. My heart was beating frantically. My emotions were disorganized. I didn't know how to stop it. I took my shirt off and opened the cupboard in my room. There was a whip which I kept in there. That was the only way out for me, I needed this right now. I wanted to feel something more painful than what I was experiencing in my heart. I wished Salim was here, he would have made me feel better. Salim is my little brother. Though he doesn't stay in the county, I sent him to Saudi immediately after I had enough money for his tuition. He was studying medicine over there and has been leaving there for four years now. I couldn't even risk him being in Nigeria. He had to just stay there at least I would know he is safe. I took the whip up in the air and landed it on my bare back harshly. I whipped myself with all my strength. Tears torrented down my eyes.