Chapter 22

Xander I miss her. We spend the night in the same bed. Yes, we do. By the time I get back from work, she'd have fallen asleep on the couch whilst waiting for me, so I'd carry her to bed and sleep beside her. Even though she sleeps really close to me at night, she's still far away from me and there's only one reason for that. Me. I'm deliberately pushing her farther away from me. I didn't want to admit it to myself or anyone else but now I'm sure that I have feelings for her. These are different feelings. It's the first time I just want to be with a woman and not for the sex either. Even with Lara, it was always sex and strong attraction. I knew I loved her or so I thought but what I feel for Nichole can't be love, now, can it? No, it can't be and besides, Nichole sees me like a friend. I know she's bit infatuated with my looks. Not wanting to sound proud, but I know I've got a great body that too for someone who does only a few pushups t