46. I Want More

JACOB I guess I should've seen this coming. Things were never supposed to work out for Michael and me. This whole thing was insane, and I should've ended it before it went this far. I am supposed to be the older, responsible one, but I failed by succumbing to temptation. But I didn't think it would end this way. Couldn't he do this in person? After all, we've been through, it stung that he decided to break things off over the phone. And what were all that background noises? I could swear I heard other people talking near him. I wasn't sure if I was okay with this 'break up,' either. This wasn't some fling. But, it felt real to me, and when I think about not seeing him again... No, I don't accept it. I've decided. I'm going to go find that fool and have a real talk with him. Or should I just let him go? This emotional turmoil was getting to be too much to handle. I couldn't focus on anything else for the rest of the day. My head was full of Michael. Is this really happening to me? "Stop