Chapter 5 Hunting past

Find me in your heart Chapter 5 Alessia Cora The early sunrise looked so beautiful. Nature has never had such beauty to be seen.? The sun s rays on the horizon looked stunning against the clouds. It made them turn all different colors of pink, gold, and orange. Then, the sunlight filled the entire sky. It was well worth waking up—I must say. And despite how tired I was, it was the start of a perfect day—I wished. I somehow felt relaxed as I listened to the birds singing in the trees. A cold breeze took in the air that thrilled me.? I wanted to be happy.? With the cold breeze in the heat of the sun on my face, that became even more surprising. It should be perfect. Another silent tear fell on my face and fell on my tear-stained dress. Formerly silky and beautiful, now spontaneously wet and wet after all the crying I ve done since before. I still can t understand everything. However, no matter how many times people around me tried to explain everything, I still couldn t believe it Why and how did it all start? ? "Breath, just breathe" That s what I keep telling myself. I get them trying to help me, but it doesn t work. Not a piece. The more they kept talking to me, the angrier I was. I m bewildered now. I couldn t understand the real emotion I was feeling between sad and crying and so angry that I felt like I was about to explode. By now, I had reached a point where I was crying. That s really maybe. No matter how much I amuse myself with what I see, I can t even tell what kind of fear I feel. The next day I was tempted in the office because of what happened at the meeting. I expected it, and I was pretty sure my co-workers would tease me. ????"And yes, do you know what Sir Asher said?" They remained interested in the subject, and Zoe actually joined in. ????"What, Engineer? OMG!" ????I was violently shaken by what I saw. They even gossip with each other right in front of me. "Forget what happened, don t open that again, or else you can leave my place." ????My co-workers teased me all day because of that. While they were laughing, I preferred to immerse myself in work. That was a lot compared to my first months here. ????I passed the licensure examination this year, and after a month, I was personally invited by Engineer Dionysus to the firm. I am more than six months on this, but I am getting used to it. I will not underestimate the school I went to in college, too. The quality of education is good, and the school is more focused on the Engineering courses. I turned to Engineer Diony, thinking how much I owe him again. He has been in this field for a long time, and I can say he is really very good.? He s thirty-two, but he s so good that the women have been intimidated with, so until now, he hasn t had a wife. Then, my eyes darted at Zoe. They have their own company, and if you think she should have just worked there or taken a course connected there but this is what she chose. But then, Zoe is excellent on this. Her ideas are exceptional! It s just that if they tease me all the time, I might hate them forever. ????"Aw! My best friend is just getting all serious here," she said when he tried to approach the table. The gossips and laughter were over, so they turned their attention to me again. "Are you done harassing me?" I raised an eyebrow at her, and she even laughed before taking a swivel chair and set it aside for me. ????"It is surprising, isn t it?" I just quickly looked up. "How did he defend you to the board members yesterday so they wouldn t laugh at you? That is not so–" I returned to her words with a sharp look. ????"I know where this is going, Zoe." ????I shook my head. I am seemingly absolutely sure of what is being said and will not give up. I also couldn t tell the woman what happened right outside my condo yesterday. If I did, I d rather not put the woman to sleep with so much awkwardness and curiosity. ????"I can feel it, Alessia."? I lost my patience when I was holding on to what she said. ????I almost closed the laptop, so she sighed. "Don t you also feel, Zoe, that we will be together forever? Then, why not? Didn t you also feel then that he wouldn t fool me? Then why did he cheated on me?" My voice was already trembling when Zoe turned to me and attended. ????"I m sorry, Alessia."? She kept coming at me, but I couldn t take it anymore. It s too late to sulk and think about the past. ????Soon enough, the people there became serious about work. They are all staring at their desks and their laptops. I checked all the designs provided by H&H, and it was really good. I also checked the measurements even though I knew nothing could go wrong. ????"Alessia, where will you go after?" Zoe asked me when she saw me setting the table, waiting to go home. "I don t know, maybe grocery?" I suddenly thought that my refrigerator was full of water. Maybe I need to shop for that first. ????"Is that so? I m sorry, Alessia. I can t go with you. Mom s been annoying me with something." I nodded quickly, then smiled. I understand her. Sometimes, I feel sorry for her because I feel like she is choking about her life. We both thought that we could live independently when we graduated, but she was left in their house.? We were sad about that, but there was nothing we could do. Her parents want her safety, especially since she is very popular and their company is well known. ????"Let s just understand them, Zoe. Next time, maybe we can go for a walk again." I tried to ease the mood until we were both outsides. I laughed when she was still having tantrums when she saw that a driver was really going to pick her up. ????I smiled when I thought that Zoe still hadn t really changed. She has become more dedicated now to work, but she s still the Zoe I met in college. ????She was even sorry because she could no longer take me to the mall and was also worried about commuting. When I came out of the building, I looked around to see where I could ride. I found a tricycle parked beside the building. Maybe it s better to save money because there s a mall nearby. Also, I am wearing a slack, so there would be no problem. Ten minutes after five o clock in the afternoon I was at the mall. I m glad because I have a long time to shop now. At the entrance of the mall, I immediately saw a man in a tuxedo. My mouth fell open when I thought it might be him, so I rubbed my eyes.? When I opened my eyes, and Asher was no longer in my sight, I breathed a sigh of relief. I don t know, but I just lose my mood when he s there.? All the memories that I really tried to forget to keep on haunting me. It looks like zombies are chasing me now. I stopped in front of a boutique when I met the person there. Kael saw me, so he immediately loosened his grip on his mommy and ran towards me.? I noticed that he was growing fast, he was only six years old, but he was very tall for his age. He hugged me and immediately charged. I accommodated him and then waved at Ellise and Joaquin. Ellise and other customers were lined up at the said boutique, so it didn t get close to me right away. I could clearly see how she s beautifully wearing a fitted off-shoulder dress, showing off its curves. She s so sexy, and you won t notice she have a naughty Kael. I smiled as Joaquin went to us. "That looks good on you. . ." He points to my position, having Kael on my arms. "You should think about getting married." ????He burst out laughing. Every time we meet, he always teases me, he says I m old, so I should be looking for a boyfriend and telling me that it has no fun that I don t have any inspiration. ????I just sucked on his teasing. We are now facing each other outside this boutique while I am carrying Kael. He s impossible. I haven t been able to think of that since I haven t been on the job for a year. Joaquin is only twenty-five, but as he forces me to get married, he acts more than a mom. ????My thoughts deepened even more. It s good that Joaquin has been working for his own company for almost six years. That s why K-12 caught up with me, so I got caught even though I was too eager to work then. ????"How can she get married, eh, she doesn t even have a boyfriend!" Ellise is still holding her husband. He is a year younger than Joaquin. Unexpectedly, I was really happy that I forgave the two, and our friendship became good. ????"What do you think you re doing, Ellise?" My heart beat faster. The voice is very much familiar. That s Joaquin s voice. I didn t know he was here somewhere, too and especially the reason why it was screaming. ????"I m doing the right thing, Joaquin. Why don t you believe?" I quickly recognized that voice. It was Ellise s voice, Joaquin s fling. There were how many times have I caught them both, so I don t have to fool myself anymore. ????"I can t believe it because it s just not there, Ellise! I want Alessia." ????"That is why I m telling her about it earlier! What about it?" Gradually, my chest felt tighter and tighter. It was so hard for me to breathe. ????"You have nothing to say to her! She doesn t have to know because it s not mine!" ????The next thing I heard from Ellise was a loud cry. Even though I was not able to fully understand the subject, it was as if a huge crack of pain had passed over me. ????"It s not mine, and I won t accept it, Ellise. Remember that." ???? Joaquin was my boyfriend back then when I found out that he got Ellise pregnant. They hid it from me, and Joaquin wanted Ellise to have an abortion. He said he would not accept it. He almost begged when I didn t accept his apology. "I m sorry, Jo, but you know I will never forgive you when the child is affected by this." ????From then on, the two got along well, and Joaquin also accepted the child. Ellise also apologized, and I gave it to her right away. I also got the reason for what happened to let Joaquin and his family go finally. ????We had a toxic relationship back then, and I was very happy to see Ellise s relationship and family well now. Zoe and I didn t expect this, but in the end, we were just happy for them. ????When we split up, I quickly went grocery because I also didn t want to be outside at night. This is a long and tiring day. I don t know if I m tired at work or it is thinking about what happened. I threw myself straight on the bed. I am wondering what else can happen in the next few days because it seems like the place is getting smaller for Asher and me. I have a hard time imagining the next few days with him, but I know I have to start that with acceptance - we re long done. ????"But then. . ." I whispered to myself. I can hardly swallow my thoughts. It was too much, and I felt so lost. "W-Why did you come back, Asher?"