Chapter 18 Hang-out til two

Chapter 18 Find me in your heart If there is one thing I should have learned from all the things that I ve been, it is that I should not trust, that I should not believe anyone that quick. I shouldn t believe anyone or that someone or something is reliable, good, and honest. That must be what I should be doing. I must have lost the desire to trust others. Trust is, indeed, something we can t handle but feel. For me, this is one of the most important and fatal things when we don t know how to be careful and handle things. Trust is a foundation of any faith, be it loves, life or religion, or even just buying something in the store. I said that because if you don t trust when you buy something in the store, you probably won t buy it. Many doubts will come to your mind even when you simply buy it, considering if it is clean and safe. . . It s as simple as that. I should have lost my self-confidence before like it is an understandable thing, but no. I trusted myself more. I believe that when I focus more on something I want, I can get it. I believe that if we people don t have any confidence in ourselves, no one will distinguish our value—not even ourselves. We have nowhere to go in our lives. Trusting yourself is where everything you do begins. It may seem vague, but I keep in mind that I need to trust myself to do what I want, give them justice, and give them and myself a good life. I need to trust my capabilities that I can be strong and have the best confidence I can bring whenever I want to go. I want to be strong and combative. I want to be strong as if I can get through everything. I believed that time would surely come where I would achieve what I wanted and succeed. And I could feel that thing worked. I felt that those beliefs strengthened me to face every trial that came my way. I know that I can never lose that confidence because no one else can give me the things I want except me. No one can take revenge, and no one can give that justice to my dead parents if it is not me. In this journey, I learned that I need to do everything to reach it if I want something. I just need to trust that I can, and I can reach anything that I want with action and heart. I can be wherever I want to be. Trust is such a broad matter. And I don t think not having trust issues is a good idea at all. I feel like I m not the one who can instill resentment in someone after a long time. The annoying days remained. If I can t see him with a woman, I get annoyed with his aura. He became the most hated person for me. When I got to the classroom that morning, I turned on my cell phone, and, effectively, I could focus first. I thought I would be at peace today, but it was just a mistake. Asher Prado sent you a request. I was shocked that I had let go of my cellphone, but when I picked it up again, Zoe immediately grabbed it. "Zoe!" She fiddled with my cellphone then hit the friend request that was there. "Seriously?" She burst out laughing. I can t believe her! I felt so annoyed when I chose to sit down and let Zoe fiddle with my cellphone. Asher. . . I don t know anything about him. One more thing, I don t like him. "Oh, you got a message. . ." That s where we started chatting, which is surprising because I feel like the past has happened again. I must admit, no matter how much I hate him, I always find myself replying to his messages. "Hey! Alessia, huh? Make sure you can come? You will come with me tomorrow, you promised!" Zoe s excited response one morning. She says night-out is tomorrow, and since I m not used to that, and it s my first time going, I m very nervous. I m just thinking about those many men who are there. It s horrible. "Yes, I have no choice." True enough because I know if I don t agree, my ears will just get tired of hearing his complaints and reproach. She laughed then left the road. It is Thursday today, and we don t have school the next day, their driver picked him up, and I chose to go to the mall first. * * * * * The next call woke me up the next day, well— it was Zoe, of course. At ten o clock in the morning, she was already upset. "I m just making sure you don t fool me in." I just really can t stand this woman. I started my day by cleaning my room, and maybe I ll just have lunch with breakfast for a few hours. I stopped when I heard my phone beeped. From: Asher Prado Do you have plans today? Be careful, okay? I smirked as I typed because we ve been like this for a long time, and he didn t miss a day without me texting to be careful, or to eat, and some other sweet messages. But apart from our meetings at school and not socializing, I have never been with him or even seen him outside. We ve been like this for a few months, but he didn t even think of meeting me? What do his messages mean? Three o clock in the afternoon when I started to move for the hang-out. According to her, we have schoolmates with us because it will be more fun when the group goes. Wearing a black halter-fitted dress and thin lipstick on my face, I decided to head to the mall where Zoe and I would meet. I don t know, but it seems like over time, I get more excited. "Alessia, you re five minutes late," Zoe said with a smile. "Why? Are we complete?" I hid my cellphone to face her more freely, and my eyes almost popped out at what I saw next to her. "Alessia, well — this is Asher Prado, our schoolmate, and Senior. Fourth-year with BS in Criminology. . ." She suppressed a laugh as she pronounced her name. That s all I have to do with shame. Is this woman really my friend? "Then, this is Sean Bautista, his classmate. Then, my friend Dan." I was quiet on our way there while Zoe and Dan had a good laugh. Sean and Asher, on the other hand, are talking to each other. While me? I think I got my saliva rotten. I stared at them for a long time before I realized that this Asher had no intention of talking to me. Why doesn t he now tell me to be careful? Be careful with him! "Sis, we re here! It s not the bar like Eugene s, but I know the people, so no worries," Zoe exclaimed when we entered the bar, and someone immediately guided us to the table reserved by Zoe. I gave a bad look to the person next to me now, and he raised an eyebrow at me again, so I rolled my eyes. Soon, the food we ordered arrived. Zoe said that we should eat a heavy meal first before alcohol takes over our stomachs. "So, Asher, how about your program? Is it hard? My cousin from Pangasinan also pursue the same," Zoe asked Asher, who broke the silence. "It s hard. So you have to be ready and make it what you really want. That s because, even if it s hard, we ll just do it because we want to. . ." He looked at Sean then nodded. "Ay! You are strong," Zoe commented again, then giggled. "Hey, not really. I m really struggling too." Asher laughed after speaking. Am I the only one? But I m really annoyed by this 'man . Why does he talk like that? In the end, irritation led to me. "What, aren t you going to drink yet?" Without hesitation, I turned over my glass and drank. Zoe was even more surprised by what I did. The second time, I took the wine again, put it in my glass, and then drank it suddenly. Sweet like juice filled my hot mouth. I could already feel the heat from here, but I just ignored that. "Wow, that s my sis!" Zoe praised me. "Oh, since Elysia has already started, let s really start," Dan said happily. He looks like a child as he claps his hand. Sean and Asher laughed as well. The wine went well for them, and I am not happy. Who would be happy if you were next to this man, Asher? I just drink from a small glass and let them have fun. After a long time of drinking, I sighed when someone spoke next to me. "You shouldn t drink like that. You will get drunk easily." I looked up and stared at him wickedly. As if on cue, my eyes suddenly rotated, causing me to no longer find the right angle staring at his face. I close my eyes and look back at the table. The unspoken boiling of blood and my irritation with the man were back. When I tried to stand up to go to the comfort room, I lost my balance due to extreme dizziness, but Asher also quickly caught up with me. I was even more irritated and arrogantly forced to stand up. "Hey, you! You jerk. You should stop annoying me! Aren t you just good at talking?" I tried to look at his face, but I couldn t sustain because I felt like my eyes were smashed when they were closed. I couldn t see anything but I knew Asher was just in front of me and I had to say what I wanted. "Shit, Alessia. Calm down—" It was Zoe, of course, I know her voice. "No, I won t calm down until this man says what he wants to do to me. Yes. . ." I taught even though I no longer knew, and I could no longer see who I was talking to. "What is it really? Are you still fooling me like that?" "Oh, hell. Alessia, that s enough." I laughed at Zoe s voice of concern. I barely smiled. "Excuse me. Can you bring us to our VIP Room, please?" "Wait, why VIP, Sie?" "You wouldn t understand. I know that Alessia—" Before Zoe could finish what she was saying, someone immediately grabbed my arm and lifted me. Damn my eyes! I can t even see who this fucker that suddenly touched me is. "Ew, don t touch me!" I heard laughter - lots of them, before my system shut down. * * * * * I woke up with a comfy pillow— well, I don t really know if this is a pillow, but I still chose to lie down for a while. I shifted place. I tilted my head and inhaled at what hit my face. My eyes widened when I realized it wasn t a pillow, and it was Asher s lap! "Damn it!" I almost sat down with a headache. I rolled my eyes and found everyone asleep in their seats. What happened? "Alessia. . ." Asher gently grabbed my arm, but I slapped it hard. "I want to puke." I stood up and quickly went to the comfort room that was there. Thank God my balance did not disappoint me. The moment I faced the mirror I almost screamed, I looked like ten people raped me! My make-up was smudged, my hair seemed to have been pulled by five women. My God, I just saw my own disaster. I spent some time in the bathroom, and when I came out, Zoe was awake, and she was taking care of Dan. It was two in the morning, and here we are. "Oh, Alessia. Do you want coffee or something?" I shook my head. "I want to go home, Sie." "Alessia, I can t drive you home, but–" "I ll drive her home," Asher presided, and I immediately appealed. "Hell no!" I quickly left there and decided to find a possible vehicle. Silly, Alessia. It s two o clock in the morning. Where will you find the car? I just sighed when I felt that a man suddenly lifted me. "Asher, stop it!" He got a response, but he just kept on walking. "I hate you!" My God, I can t believe I am screaming my lungs out. "And I like you too, Alessia." My eyes widened immediately. How dare he say that? "I am driving you home." I was just tired and decided to let him be. It was as if my strength had suddenly run out.