Chapter 454

I remained in a confused state. My mind was like watching a playback of my entire life. The first to appear in my consciousness were my parents, followed by Clifford and Cinque. After that was the first ray of light in my life—Lance, followed by my humble marriage with Dixon. Finally, it was Zachary that appeared last in my life. I have not had a real relationship in my life. It was Zachary that taught me what it felt like to be treasured. It was Zachary that brought me out of that swamp and gave me unconditional love. It was him that gave me something to believe in, or rather, he turned into the thing I believe in. Loving him was like loving a belief. What was belief?! It was something that could only be sought after and untarnishable. Zachary’s stab and those words completely destroyed my belief! His mother finally turned into the straw that broke his back. Even if he once promised me that I could leave matters in his hands! My mind was trapped in utter confusion and my e