Chapter 56 Embarrassment in Huge Doses

Carolyn I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have done that. I kept repeating in my head over and over as I ran home. I didn't blame him for letting him kiss me because I knew what was about to happen before it did and I didn't stop him. It would have been better if I had only let him kiss me but this was different and worse. I had let him kiss me and I had kissed him back. I might as well go to the top of a mountain and shout to everyone how much I loved him because that was what I had done. I no longer had a way of getting myself out of this mess. I had shown Ryan that I was attracted to him as he had been claiming all along. I wouldn't blame him if he started trying to woo me again. I touched my lips, wincing at how it felt and remembering kissing him. I didn't think I could ever forget that kiss. I had had fun kissing him. I had thoroughly enjoyed it. I could have gone kissing him if I hadn't reminded myself that he would expect me to start dating him afterwards and I couldn'