Chapter 41 : The games up

Bethany I'm an absolute mess today, everything that has happened is my fault and the guilt is slowly eating me up. I woke up in Ashley's bed after we had a sleepover, it has become my safe place whenever I'm feeling sad or I've just had a shit day and it was a good distraction for me last night but the guilt I woke up with this morning is taking over every other feeling inside my body. I needed some air to try and clear my head so I quietly slipped out of bed and headed outside for a quiet walk. Seeing Liam at the lake just tore me up, even more, to know all his pain and confusion has been caused by me is unbelievably painful and yet he doesn't blame me. He comforted me this morning and even though it wasn't in his usual way it still felt amazing, he still has a huge calming effect on me even if I still don't know why, I just pray with everything I have that if he's able to remember everything he doesn't end up hating me. We quickly arrive at the Alpha floor and Calvin has had a huge s