She Would Give Them Her Blessing

Kira buried her face in her knees and softly banged her head against her lap, as if she could beat an answer out of her brain this way. She felt as if her heart was being weighed down by an anchor. It was dragging her towards a dark bottomless pit. A pit of depression filled with what-ifs. What if Austyn still learned about Deborah’s return somehow? What if Austyn decided to rekindle the old romance? What if he chose Deborah over her? What if he asked her to leave? What if he came home with divorce papers and a pen, waiting for her to sign on the dotted line? The thoughts grew and took the shape of parasitic vines. They climbed out of the pit and wound themselves around her neck, choking the life out of her. Kira knew she couldn’t compare with Deborah. She was going to tell Austyn during the call, but chickened out at the last minute. She was acting like a coward. Kira pulled on her hair. This was driving her crazy. She got up and went in search of a wildflower in the front garden. She