Chapter 13

Lily POV "No, you can t command me like I am a piece of property" I screamed frustrated. "I am Alpha of this pack, don t make me use my Alpha voice Lily. I don t want to hurt you" He warned. "You re not the only Alpha Damien, it won t do shit to me" I screamed back at him. "Right now you are nothing but a rogue Lily, and until you let me mark you. That is how you will remain" Is he for real? He seriously expects me to bow down to him after what he did, he brought me back knowing full well he had someone else on the side, someone carrying his child. I felt Layla growl in my head, not wanting to be reminded of Tabitha. "Mark me? You got another wolf pregnant and you think I am going to let you mark me?" I asked incredulously. "I didn t expect to find you, how was I supposed to know I had a mate Lily, you can t blame me for things I did before finding you" He said pinching the bridge of his nose. "Yes I can, you should have left me with my Pack, what made you think I would be okay with you having an illegitimate child?" I said, storming away from him. This conversation was getting nowhere. "Aria, wasn t your father s. Do you blame your father for mating your mother, knowing she had a child with someone else or do you blame Aria?" He asked not hiding the anger behind his words. I stopped at the door, suddenly feeling guilty. Aria copped so much, for not being my father s and despite everything she still raised me, protected me. She never abandoned me, even when she could have walked away. I felt tears prick in my eyes at the thought. The past was repeating itself; it felt like I was going to have to bear the same fate of my father. Talk about Karma, I thought sarcastically. Layla whined loudly. He was right, I couldn t blame Tabitha s baby from existing. But that didn t mean I couldn t blame him. All wolves are raised, knowing they have a mate. It s taught to us at a young age, drummed into us about how great mates are. What they also forget to tell you is that not all mates are equal, not all mates save themselves for their mate, and not all mates are worth the torment. "I have put up with a lot of your drama for the last week Lily, said nothing but observe and yet I still choose you, despite how different you are, still brought you back with me. That has to count for something" "Yeah, you did, because the mate bond told you too, Damien. Don t say you did it for me. If you did, you would have left me with my pack. I didn t want this. I made that very clear I didn t want a mate, even told you why" Layla had stayed quiet the entire time, I could feel her sadness. She wanted Damien, but he hurt her, his actions before us cut her deeply. "I don t care about your broken wolf, Lily. I told you this already, " He yelled. "Don t care? That s why I am not allowed out without you? That s why you told your Pack I was erratic and unhinged?" "Who told you that?" "It doesn t matter, you still said it, I should have known better to believe you when you said they would be different, you're exactly like everyone back home" I felt the tears I had been holding back finally break through my walls, silenting running down my face. I was stupid for thinking they would be different, that this pack would be different. "They are different Lily, Callie and Max accept us" Layla said softly. "That s two people, Layla" I whispered to her, finally seeing the truth. It finally made sense, what the room upstairs was for. It became startlingly clear. "They do accept you, I accept you Lily" "If you accept me, what is the room upstairs for then?" I said, turning to face him. "It was a precaution, that is all. I am Alpha of my pack, my pack s safety has to come first, Lily. You know this" "So what, my wolf loses control, you were just going to lock me up and throw away the key?" "It s not like that, you are assuming you know my intentions, yet you never let me explain" He growled. "Now please get upstairs, we can talk about it tomorrow" "No" "Lily, don t make me do this" "I m not telling you to, I am not forcing you to do anything Damien, just leave me be" "Lily, Get upstairs now" His Alpha voice ringing clearly in my head. I felt Layla whine loudly, before growling and digging her claws in, trying to fight his command. I chuckled. Now knowing why Aria hates using her Alpha voice. Being rogue, it s extremely painful. My entire body shudders as I try to fight off his command. Sweat forms on my neck and I see Damien look at me like it pains him just by watching me try to fight against him. He steps forward and I growl warningly at him. I feel myself pale like all the blood is leaving my body, before collapsing and dropping to my knees. "Lily stop trying to fight it please, you re only hurting yourself" He said walking over cupping my face with his hand. Familiar tingles spread over my cheek and I involuntarily lean into his touch. Pain racks my body as I feel the command behind his words pass through every cell. My vision becomes blurred as I scream. The Alpha looks at me, panic shining in his eyes at what he did. I feel him pick me up off the floor, the pain easing slightly before I feel him move towards the stairs. "I m sorry" He whispers. Placing me on my feet, Layla forces me up the stairs not being able to handle the pain of going against him,? I drop on my knees again trying to catch my breath as the pain slowly leaves my body. I hear the Alpha come up behind me, scooping me up. He walks us into the bedroom before placing me on the bed. I watch as he walks into the bathroom before returning with a damp cloth and placing it on my forehead. My head was pounding against my skull. Feeling the bed dip, the Alpha pulls me against him, resting my head on his chest, I feel him kiss the top of my head before sleep takes over and I pass out. The next morning, I awoke to the sound of the doorbell, Alpha Damien's side of the bed was cold telling me he had been up for some time. I make my way downstairs to answer the door. My mood plummeted when I saw Tabitha again. "He isn t here" I tell her before shutting the door in her face. She instantly knocks on the door again. Opening it, I have to fight the urge to throat punch her. "What do you want?" I demand as she places her hands on her hips. "I don t know if Damien told you, but I actually work here" She states, pushing past me and walking into the house. He actually didn t tell me, but I remember Natalia mentioning her name saying she was the morning house worker. I groan internally before shutting the door. Layla growled in my head angrily as we watched her saunter into the closet under the stairs. I walk up the stairs, heading back to the room when she speaks. "You know when I get the test results this afternoon, he will have no choice but to kick your ass to the curb, when he realises this baby is actually his" My hand grips the bannister, my nails digging into the soft wood leaving claw marks. " It must hurt knowing you aren t the one baring his child" She sang out in her irritating nasally voice. Making me growl loudly in warning. "Yeah, it sucks, but how do you think your mate will feel when you find him?" I retorted. She doesn t reply, but I can hear her rummaging around in the cupboards before I see her pop out holding a bucket and mop. "Tabitha, if this kid is his, that doesn t make you his mate" Tabitha growled, not liking the truth. She doesn t intimidate me, and I know I had hit a nerve with her. I continue up the stairs heading back to the bedroom when I hear the downstairs door open and the Alpha s familiar intoxicating scent wafts through the house. I hear his voice before I see him. "Tabitha, what are you doing here?" He says, by the tone of his voice I can tell he is annoyed. "Working what s it look like?" She bites back sarcastically. "You don t work here anymore, Tabitha. I will have you transferred elsewhere" "What? You can t do that Damien, I am carrying your child and you re just going to throw me away because you met that bitch" "Watch your tongue Tabitha, that bitch is your Luna and my mate. I won t listen to you speak of her that way" I couldn t be bothered listening anymore, deciding to go take a shower. I figure out the shower before stripping off my clothes. Locking the door so the Alpha doesn t try to invade my privacy, not that it stops him from knocking. "Lily, open the door, please" "I m showering, you can wait" I sing out from the shower, trying to rinse the shampoo out of my hair. I hear him stalk off. I finish my shower and open the door with my towel wrapped tightly around me. Walking out and seeing Damien is sitting on the edge of the bed waiting for me. I roll my eyes at him and walk into the closet to get some clothes. "I told her to leave." He says before sighing. "Yeah, because that will make me feel better knowing she is carrying your baby" I huff. "We don t know for sure, she has been with a lot of the unmated wolves" He said. "Well, she seems pretty sure" I tell him, pulling my shirt over my head. When I pulled my head through the shirt, I found him standing in front of me. "I m sorry, okay. I fucked up. That doesn t change how I feel about you" He whispers, moving closer and dipping his head into the crook of my neck. "You don t feel anything for me Damien, the bond makes you think you do" I tell him, pushing him back. "Why do you do that, I know you want me, Lily. Just like I want you. Why keep denying it?" He growls, annoyed. "I m going to find Callie, I don t want to be around you right now" I tell him walking past him. "She is training, where I am headed now if you want to join everyone" I look over my shoulder as he walks into the closet before removing his jeans and shirt and putting on some loose fitting shorts and leaving his chest bare. As much as I am annoyed with him, I can t help but admire him. I feel Layla purr seeing his toned muscular body. Making Damien look up, his wolf obviously hearing her. I wonder why she can t hear him? I thought. "Like what you see?" Damien asked, a smile on his lips. I roll my eyes and turn my back to him, when I feel him walk up behind me, his hands going to my hips and his lips to my neck. "Deny it all you want Lily, but I can smell how turned on you are right now" He says sucking on the skin below my ear. I squeeze my legs together, trying to ignore the throbbing feeling between them. I feel him chuckle before kissing my jaw and stepping back. "Can we go now?" I ask, not liking the way his eyes are hungrily raking over my body. If he keeps looking at me like that, I may just very well jump his bones. He slaps my ass before grabbing my hand walking me towards the door. I don t pull my hand from his instead, letting him tug me along. I can feel Layla s happiness at being close to her mate. When we walk downstairs, I hear him growl. "I told you to leave Tabitha," Damien says, annoyed that she was still here. "It's fine Damien, let's just go" I tell him, tugging him toward the door. "I can make her leave Lily, if you're uncomfortable" I look at Tabitha. Her face pales at the thought of having him use his Alpha voice on her. I shake my head, looking at her belly. "No, I don t want you to hurt her baby" I tell him. For the first time since meeting her, she actually looked scared for a second before looking grateful. I have every right being his mate to make him get rid of her. Yet I couldn t do that to another woman. Despite our disagreements, she was still a woman and one carrying a child. I couldn t be so cruel to harm a pregnant woman, no matter how much I hated her. Turning my back on her, I walked out the door.