CHAPTER 60

Sin Whack! Whack! The sound of the punching bag could be heard as it was thumped harder. The bag swirled and dust poured out of it, enveloping the area before it drifted out of the window. "Arggg!" I yelled whilst punching harder. I could feel my hands giving out and my body weakened, yet I didn't stop. The pain I had caused Artemisia was far worse than what I was feeling. I reckon she was in the room, huddled somewhere crying herself to sleep, like every night. Even though I was aware of all that I was doing to her. The pain I was causing her for no reason, I couldn't help myself. I could not bring myself to stop. I believe I was just like the monster I was before she came. She had made me see the good side in me. She had made me believe I was not a monster. Still, it wasn't so. I was a monster! A freaking monster who was not capable of loving anyone. I didn't deserve her. She deserved better. I didn't think any amount of apology could take away the guilt I feel inside me.